I have never myself experienced depression or tried cutting myself. I have been on the other side watching a beautiful best friend go through it all. There were days when she came to school mascara running down her cheeks and a jumper on to cover her scars.
She told me everything. Not for attention. Just because she needed someone. One day she looked at me and said ‘I can’t take it anymore, everything hurts’. I broke down in tears in front of my best friend. My claimed sister. I couldn’t bear the thought of her actually taking her own life. I thought of the days of me going to school and her not sitting next to me in class. It hurt. She told me the times she walked outside her house with a rope in her hand walking up to the tall tree that grew in front of her house. I don’t know what stopped her but I do know I am extremely grateful for it. I know I will never truly understand what dark thoughts she experiences but all I know is if she did take her own life. I know mine would be a struggle.
I love my best friend. And if you are that person that struggles with depression and is forever thinking of cutting think of the people that love you. Even when they don’t show it they do. Think of how they will go when you aren’t there to share all those moments you can have together. Please take one day at a time. And if you truly want to end your life at least message me first.
If you kill yourself today or any other day you won’t know just how much you meant to people. If you kill yourself today, it stops your pain, but it pains all the ones who know you for the rest of their life. Suicide is the easy way out - but it’s the wrong choice. Life is beautiful. Yes, it does have its ups and downs everyone has their bad days. Sometimes people go through tough times in their lives like you’re probably going through now but bad times come and go. You might not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it’s there.
No matter how hard life gets, never give up on yourself, or on your life. Take a minute now, and think. If you killed yourself ~ how would the people that love you feel/go through?
Can’t think of anything? Well I’ll tell you: tears, tears, and more tears. Devastation. Guilt. Pain. Broken. Regret. Miserable. If after reading this you still feel suicidal, there are people that can help you. I’m here for you whenever you need me, and I’ll be more than happy to listen to you and try to help you feel better. There are teachers, parents, grandparents, neighbors, adults, councilors ~ they’re all there for you whenever you need them.